Lu Mingfei, who studied Dragon Clan before slaying the dragon

"Why do you ask this?" Lu Mingfei said to Renata, "Do I have contact with many girls...is this one of the clues?"

"No, it suddenly occurred to me that you once mentioned a girl's menarche to me." Renata looked into Lu Mingfei's eyes, "If you have been locked up here and have no memory, how would you know? What is menarche and menstruation in girls? You are not a girl, will anyone tell you this? Those nurses will not even teach us girls this knowledge."

Lu Mingfei was stunned again. Indeed, when Renata told him that she wet the bed, Lu Mingfei naturally corrected Renata and said that this was not bed-wetting, but her daughter's menarche, symbolizing that a girl was about to grow out of bed. The process of a child transforming into a real woman... But how did Lu Mingfei know this?

Lu Mingfei thought about it carefully and found that he had no memory of all this. No one told him what a girl's menarche was or what a girl's menstruation was. The only people he came into contact with here were nurses, but the nurses It was impossible for them to tell Lu Mingfei about girls' menarche and menstruation. Lu Mingfei had no memory of this period. This knowledge was just like the history of the Soviet Union's defeat of Germany. It was as if someone had stuffed it into his mind out of thin air. This made Lu Mingfei fall into deep self-doubt.

"And... the night of the full moon." Lu Mingfei looked directly at Renata, "You once told me that another guy in my body told you that if I find you on the night of the full moon, If we don’t get back the two things we lost, some important things cannot be undone, right? So we still have four days?”

"Yes, originally there was still a week, but you said you slept for three days, and I was also detained for three days." Renata nodded.

"But why do I know that the 15th is the night of the full moon?" Lu Mingfei murmured in a low voice, his voice echoing in the empty room, "In my memory, I have never walked out of this room, nor have I ever left this room. I have never seen the moon with my own eyes, so how can I accurately determine which night the full moon is?"

Renata was stunned for a moment.

"When you talked about the night of the full moon, the date of the 15th came to my mind subconsciously, without thinking about it." Lu Mingfei said, "But when I think about it now, I can't remember who it was at all. He told me that the 15th is the day of the full moon, and I have no impression of seeing a full moon."

"It's not just these few things, there are many, many things. Looking back now, I can't find the source of memory for almost everything in my cognition..." Lu Mingfei said slowly, "It's really just amnesia. Is it that simple...is it possible that I am false?"

When he said the last sentence, Lu Mingfei's voice was very low. He seemed to be asking Renata, and he seemed to be asking a question to himself... This question was like a lingering devil. , lingering in Lu Mingfei's mind, unable to go away.

"Aren't you right here?" Renata touched Lu Mingfei's forehead with her finger, "I can see you and touch you, so why do you say you are false?"

Renata couldn't keep up with Lu Mingfei's brain circuit. No matter how smart she was, she was only a little girl in her early ten years, and she had never received a decent education, so Renata couldn't keep up with Lu Mingfei at this time. She didn't know that Lu Mingfei couldn't distinguish between self, id and whether he was a free consciousness.

Now Lu Mingfei can no longer think about what he has lost. He has fallen into deep self-doubt. He does not know the value of his existence... Maybe he was created by someone, and this life is just for food. It's just a sample observed by others. If that's the case, does it matter if you lose something? Because I have nothing to begin with, what kind of irreparable thing could happen to me?

Lu Mingfei tried his best to raise his head. His neck was tightly strangled by the straitjacket, but Lu Mingfei was not trying to break free. He didn't want Renata to see his current expression.

Lu Mingfei stared at the ceiling in confusion and despair. The light in his eyes dimmed inch by inch. His eyes were hollow and numb. There seemed to be a bottomless whirlpool inside. The whirlpool of despair swept away all the emotions, as if Even the self is gradually being swallowed up.

“This is how you live in the here and now, and this is how you live every moment of your life.”

"If you are awake, be awake; if you are asleep, be asleep. If you are doing one thing, you should not think about anything else. If your hands are here, your thoughts should also be Here. If you take action, don’t hesitate.”

“When you live life and die in harmony with yourself and the universe, there is nothing to fear.”

"If you doubt, you no longer believe in yourself. And when doubt begins, faith ends."

A poetic language sounded in Lu Mingfei's ears, chanting and chanting... It was Renata singing some strange sentences in a low voice, just like a bard reciting the words he had just composed to encourage the world.

Lu Mingfei, who was still staring at the ceiling in a daze, was brought back from his thoughts by Renata's words. He turned his head and looked at Renata in surprise, as if he didn't expect that this girl could speak such philosophical sentences.

"I didn't say it. I heard it all. These words were all said by you." Renata looked at Lu Mingfei's surprised eyes and said with some embarrassment, "Oh oh oh, it's someone else." A boy... these are what Zero said."

"Did Number Zero tell you?" Lu Mingfei asked.

"No, he was talking to himself." Renata shook her head, "When I couldn't sleep at night, I always heard someone reciting poetry in this building. I asked Zero, and he said he I couldn’t sleep at night, so I could only read poems to pass the time, but he also heard these words.”

"Number Zero also said that truly smart people will not fall into self-doubt. If a person doesn't even trust himself, he will eventually lose everything." Renata added to Lu Mingfei, "But this sentence The words were spoken by Number Zero himself, not what he heard... Number Zero said that he would rather doubt the world than doubt himself."

"I always feel that these sentences are familiar, but I can't remember where I heard them." Lu Mingfei recalled it and started to have a headache again. He was a little helpless.

Every time he finally had some thoughts and wanted to think about it, his head started to hurt inexplicably. It was as if someone had set up a huge cage in his brain, and all important memories were locked in that cage. In the cage, pain was used as a door lock. Whenever Lu Mingfei wanted to explore what was in the cage, he was blocked by an unbearable headache.

"If you really can't remember, don't force yourself. I saw that you were too depressed, so I suddenly remembered these words and told you." Renata quickly comforted Lu Mingfei, "I think it sounds familiar to me too. , these words seem to be very famous, I have heard them several times, and Zero will often recite them in the middle of the night, and 'Doctor' seems to have said the same words when he was standing in the garden looking at the sky."

"'Doctor'..." Lu Mingfei fell into a brief silence. He suddenly asked an irrelevant question, "Speaking of Renata, have you ever met this 'Doctor'?"

"I've seen it before. All the children here have seen 'Doctor'." Renata nodded to Lu Mingfei, "'Doctor' is very patient with everyone and often makes the nurses treat us better. He Occasionally, he would tell us stories about when he was studying when he was young. The 'Doctor' said that children who are obedient and perform well will be sent to Moscow to study in the future. The children all like him and respect him. Both Yakov and Sergey Saying 'Doctor' is their idol."

"Do you like 'Doctor' too?" Lu Mingfei looked at Renata's face.

When Lu Mingfei asked this question, Renata's eyes dodge unnaturally for a few times, and she hesitated for a moment before speaking.

"There is no one here who doesn't like 'Doctor'... 'Doctor' is very good to me..." After Renata hesitated for a few words, she suddenly lowered her voice and said, "But actually I am a little afraid of him..."

"Who are you afraid of?" Lu Mingfei asked, "'Doctor'?"

"Hmm..." Renata nodded slightly.

She didn't dare to admit it. It was only because she was in front of Lu Mingfei that she reluctantly spoke her mind. Because all the children here liked and loved the doctor, Fan Fan said half a sentence about the doctor here. Bad-mouthing is as unforgivable a crime as promoting one's support for the dark arts of witches in the Middle Ages.

"Why are you afraid of him? Has he done anything to make you afraid?" Lu Mingfei continued to ask.

"No, 'Doctor' has always been very good to me. He has never done anything excessive to me." Renata shook her head, "It's just that I feel that living here is a bit depressing. We are all locked in our own rooms. Here, you are still tied to a chair, and the 'Doctor' is the person in charge here. I am afraid of those vicious nurses, but even the head nurse seems to be afraid of the 'Doctor', so I feel that although the 'Doctor' behaves He is very kind to us, but he is actually very distant.”

Although Renata's expression was very awkward, Lu Mingfei completely understood what Renata meant. This remote seaport in the polar regions, far away from all continents, can be understood as a small utopia independent of the real world. Each utopia is There is a reasonable class division. Children like Renata, Anton, and Khorkina are undoubtedly the bottom of this utopia. The people at the bottom have no right to speak or choose. Their only power is to be governed and governed. And provide some value.

The nurses and soldiers can probably be regarded as the management of this utopia. They have some power, but not much. The only ones who can restrain them are children of lower class like Renata and Khorkina.

As the person in charge of this port, the "doctor" is undoubtedly the highest authority in this utopia. He can order the nurses and soldiers as he wishes. He can also directly control the children, but this is not necessary.

Because an excellent person in power will never have a bad attitude towards the people at the bottom. He only needs to restrain his subordinates, pass his thoughts and will through the layers, and radiate to the entire utopia... So It is said that those nurses and soldiers actually represent the will of the "Doctor" himself, or that the entire utopia is a collection of the "Doctor's" thoughts. Renata feels that living here is very depressing, precisely because She lives in the shadow of the "Doctor's" will.

Lu Mingfei understood Renata's words, but he did not tell Renata these thoughts, because whether Renata understood or not was secondary. If Renata understood this meaning, she would definitely understand it in the future. The doctor stayed away in fear. No matter how smart Renata was, she was only a little girl in her early ten years. She could not hide her thoughts perfectly. Lu Mingfei was afraid that Renata would be in danger because of her analysis.

Although Lu Mingfei has not yet thought about what he lost, he seems to have found the key to recovering those things... If everyone in this port is a stem of a leaf, then unraveling all the intricacies After the context, there is only one person who points to the "root".

"When was the last time you saw 'Doctor'?" Lu Mingfei asked indirectly.

"I can't remember clearly, it seems like a week ago, at the end of lunch, the 'Doctor' announced in the garden that the best children would have the opportunity to be sent to Moscow to study. Everyone was very happy." Renata Said, "'Doctor' seems to be very busy recently, and he has left all our affairs to the head nurse... Oh, by the way, there was a man in military uniform standing next to 'Doctor' at that time. I have never seen him before. "

Someone in military uniform? Lu Mingfei was not impressed. He continued to ask Renata: "Do you know the name of 'Doctor'?"

"I don't know. 'Doctor' would only tell us how talented he was when he was studying and how many girls in school loved him, but 'Doctor' never introduced himself." Renata shook her head, "Whether it was the nurses or the Soldiers don't say 'Doctor' by name."

It sounds like the name "Doctor" is like a forbidden word here. Lu Mingfei asked persistently: "What about the appearance of 'Doctor'? You must have seen him in person, right?"

"Have you not seen the appearance of 'Doctor'?" Renata looked at Lu Mingfei in surprise, "Do you suspect that 'Doctor' is related to the things you threw away?"

No matter how slow Renata is, she should realize that Lu Mingfei cares too much about "Doctor". Ever since she mentioned that Doctor said the same thing as Zero, all the questions Lu Mingfei asked were about "Doctor" of.

What surprised Renata even more was that Lu Mingfei seemed to have no understanding of "Doctor" at all... How could there be people in this building who had never seen "Doctor"?

Lu Mingfei, who was imprisoned in Ward Zero, should be the one who had the most contact with "Doctor".